marymarymaryk

Waiting...

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 00:01:49 GMT

I hate playing the waiting game. I want her here now. I'm having a hard time keeping myself busy...even though I feel fine, I just don't really feel like doing anything. I'll 'want" to get up and clean and organize something but it won't end up happening. I really need to find something to do that doesn't take up too much energy but is constructive.

My plans for tomorrow and the rest of the week:

1. Put up Christmas tree
2. Decorate Christmas tree
3. Knit some more booties
4. Make orniments out of sculpey to give as gifts.
5. Clean Bathroom
6. Go to Whole Foods and buy RECHARGE (for labor)
7. Make birthing CD
8. Make an appointment to get carseat installed
9. Do some Christmas shopping
10. Midwife appointment on Tuesday

That should keep me busy for at least a little while this week.

Oh, and the name we chose for the baby has definately been decided. If your really nice to me and ask really nice, I might tell you. :)

37 weeks

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 15:13:38 GMT

37 weeks today! Yippie. I went to see my backup midwife yesterday. Everything seems to be fine. Heart rate is good and she said that her head is pretty low. Not totally dropped yet but she wasn't really high. Her head is down so she doesn't seem like she is going to go anywhere from now till I have her. I'm just wishing she will come soon!

At least she has a name now...well, 95% sure...just no middle name yet.

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 14:04:23 GMT

I was 36 weeks on Tuesday! I am officially in the home stretch. Everyone throw some labor dust on me so I don't have the baby AFTER Xmas. Sometime between the day after Thanksgiving and Dec 15th is fine with me. But, with my luck i'll go past 40 weeks...hopefully not.

*Sigh*

time to start my day.

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 14:43:29 GMT

Monday, Monday, Monday. Tomorrow I turn 34 weeks! Yay only 2 more weeks until my midwife homebirth appointment at my house! ALthough there are a few things I need to get in order before then. First of all, we need to set up all the stuff...Like the pack n' play, and I gotta ge the cosleeper...and I gotta buy a stupid birth kit plus I gotta buy a bunch of stuff for it. I'm kinda mad I have to buy all that seeing as i'm paying a midwife like $3,400.00! Can't she bring these thingS? Ugh. I love my midwife but you would think some of that money i'm paying her goes towards stuff like that. Luckly insurance is paying me back...I think! She said she is almost positive everything will get reimbursed.

Anyway, I gotta figure out what to do today. Its cold! I should probably do some grocery shopping and pick up the birth stuff and order the kit. So, i'll be going now.

Later!

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 20:53:54 GMT

Stupid baby preparation list are daunting me. I feel like I have pretty much everything I need...except for a baby monitor and a video camera. However, I feel like i'm missing something. I do'nt know what though and I can't look at those stupid baby lists anymore because about half of the stuff on there is usless money wasting stuff that the baby really doesn't "NEED." So, i'm not sure what to do. I have diapers, wipes, clothes, powder, bath stuff, pack n' play with built in changer, bobby (nursing pillow), one of those carrier covers that keeps baby warm without having to put a jacket on her/him, 2 umbrella strollers, baby health kits, vibrating seat, stroller/carrier combo, blankets, bibs, etc. I think those are pretty much the essentials. I'm borrowing a cosleeper from Trish...I suppose I should get a few more sheets for it but other than that I feel that I am just going shopping for stuff that im not sure i'll actually use/need. I guess I should just wait until I actually need the stuff before I buy it. I have enough stuff for now that i'm not going to be running to the store every 2 seconds...

Well, thats the baby stuff I have, I just need to get all the birth stuff ready> Arg...

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 20:12:04 GMT

So, I had my baby shower this weekend! Yay! Sunday was my birthday AND my baby shower :) It was a fun day. A lot of people came and I was happy to see everyone. We painted baby pumpkins (my sisters awesome idea) and my mom was the host of a baby trivia game that we played. I only got 10 our of like 20 questions right but so did most people ha ha. I got a lot of nice gifts which I am very grateful for. My Italian Village friends got me the travel system (carseat and stroller combo) as well as some clothes and a baby bag :) My grandma got me a pack and play which came with a free umbrella stroller :) Bethany, sent me a box of a bunch of stuff from my registry, Hannah got me a baby tub, and I also got a bunch of other nice gifts that will be very helpful for the baby like a baby survival kit, and a medical type kit which will come in handy. Now that I have all this stuff, I am so excited for her to come!!!

My midwife is saying I should not be looking at my due date as (the date I should have my baby by) because if I do then I might be dissapointed if the baby comes later...that means I should be focusing on after Christmas! NO! That doesn't mean she won't come before Christmas, she just said not to get my hopes up just in case...although my hopse are still up.

I went to the midwife today, everything is normal. I am 33 weeks and I am measuring 32 weeks which is a week behind still but thats ok. The baby still seems to be head down. Her baby bum is just above my belly button and her back is on my left side which means she is on her side. Which also means that I amd definately getting "kicked" on my right sid and not punched. By 36 weeks which is in 3 weeks I have to buy all the stuff I will need for the birth as well as a birth kit I have to buy online. I don't think it will be any more than $100...at least i'm hoping it won't be. Paige said I should have all my stuff set up by 36 weeks also because I could "go" anytime after that. So, within the next 3 weeks I have to set up the Pack n' play and go over to Caleb and Trish's and pick up the cosleeper. I think i'm going to wait till shes born before bringing over the swing because I already have enough stuf around her taking up space. Trish also said I could go through Amelia's old clothes and borrow some of them. I think i'll def go over there and go through the 0-3 month old stuff just so ill have that, then after she grows out of that, i'll bring those back and get the 3-6 month stuff. I'm very thankful that Caleb and Trish are letting me borrow some of their clothes because they grow so fast!!! I got some cute outfits myself though that I will also be using. I bought the first outfit that I want her to wear which is a little pink blaketsleeper (I want her to be comfy when she gets dressed for the first time). The blanketsleeper says "honey bunny" on it and has a picture of a bunny. My favorite part about it is the feet of the P.J's are bunnies! How cute is that? I can't wait for her to wear it. I"m so excited! :)

I also have to decide weather or not I want to get the strep test done. I think I probably will just to rule out any possible problems. Which means, I have to make another apointment with my CNM and get the test done. Its ok though cause all my prenatals there are covered through insurance with no copay!

Anyway, must get going. Until next time!

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 18:41:23 GMT

I had my first ever Dermatologist appointment today. It was weird. The doctor (a woman) was very very nice. However when we were talking about moles and she was checking all of the ones I had from head to toe she told me that she "loves moles." She really liked the one I had in my belly button because it was unique and she had never seen one there before. I guess she is in the right line of work if she "loves moles" ha ha. Anyway, I had a mole that had been bothering me and I wanted to get it checked out cause it was hurting me. I wasn't sure if it was just cause it was in an area that was being streched from my belly getting bigger or it was an acutal problem. However, she looked at it and told me that she could take it off and it didn't look like anything to worry about. She was just taking it off cause it was bothering me. However, she is going to biopsy it just to make sure. I totally did not think that even if she was going to remove it she would do it the first time I came in. But, she did. It didn't take long. She just gave me a shot of novacane. She said it was perfectly safe to have it during pregnancy and not to worry so I trusted her. Ironically the only part of the procedure that hurt was the shot of novacane. Also she told me that the dry spot I had on my head was cradle cap...there is no real way to treat it especially when pregnant. I just need to buy something with tea tree oil in it.

So today I have my first prenatal Yoga class. I hope it goes well cause it cost a lot. It's an 8 week session which will bring me to the end of November. Yoga will be interesting at pretty much 9 months pregnant. Hopefully I'll be able to move at that point.

Anywho. I'll post tomorrow about how Yoga was. Now its off to the grocery store.

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 18:04:28 GMT

My Beta fishy just died. He lived about 2 years. Maybe a little more...Sucks. Maybe its something to do with Mercury Retrograde. Anyone else feeling the effects of it? It just started on Friday and I think it ends on October 15th. Why does it have to last such a long time! ?

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 17:21:14 GMT

Ugh...begginning a dizzy stint again. Hopefully it doesn't last too long. It's been going on for a few days now. It totally sucks! I really don't get what is causing it. I mean I had an MRI in June so i'm guessing its nothing serious or something would have showed up. And, its not constant. Some days i'll have it and some days I won't...well its not really that i'm dizzy just lightheaded. It makes me not want to do anything cause I feel weird when I walk around. Bright lights in stores still bother me too. But not all the time. I don't know if this is a pregnancy thing or still Lyme disease related.

Really hoping it goes away soon! Tuesday I start week 29. Getting closer!!!! I just wish I could start my "nesting" I just don't have anything for the baby yet. I'm going to wait till after my shower to get anything but thats not for another month or so...I still don't know if we are moving or not yet. I mean it will be pretty hard to buy a house and move in in 2 months. That is a lot of work. But, if we find something we like then maybe it will move forward quickly.

Anyway. I'm gonna go make a quick trip to AC moore for some more yarn. This baby will have lots of booties!!

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 14:07:30 GMT

Ok so yesterday I had my glucose test. My midwife came around 9am and Andrew made us omlets while she did the finger prick thing. My fasting blood reading was 79. Then we ate breakfast and she told me I needed to have something with sugar in it so I had a glass of cranberry juice but she said that wasn't enough. So, after an omlet and a half a bagel I had to eat a bowl of cinnimon toast crunch. It was the thing I had with the most sugar in it at my house. Boy was I full after all that!!! After I finished, we went for a walk down by the Marina and walked the small beach they have down there. Then we came back, chatted for a while and then she did the prick again (2 hours after eating). My readinng after 2 hours read 84. I guess to be high it has to be 140 or over. So I passed with flying colors!!! :) Yay! Also my blood pressure was perfect and my pulse and the baby was measuring 27 inches (just entered week 28 which is fine).

It was good cause I got to ask her a lot of questions about the birth and all that. She says I don't really need a birth plan because I can basically do anything I want as I feel neccessary. She said birth plans are good when you go to the hospital cause you want to tell ) them what you don't want them to do. She said that basically after I go into labor I am the queen and everyone should be doing stuff for me so I basically get what I want :) Thats not always a bad thing! Also, its looking like my insurance is covering most if not all of the midwife fees! Wahooo!!!! Thats some money back in my pocket which is good. She can't come any later than the 31st thogh (which would be 2 weeks late...i'm hoping I wouldn't be that late).

Anywho...been thinking about Christmas and Thanksgiving and whats going on for those holidays. I just know that I want to stay around here for Christmas (obviously) cause I don't think i'll be wanting to take a 2 week old to Block Island. I'll be needing my rest. I don't mind traveling other places in RI though. Hopefully we will be able to figure everything out.

Anyway, I have rambled to much. Time to start laundry and figure out the day. I'm doing pretty well these past couple days (knock on wood). My knitting is keeping me pretty busy.

Knitting

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 00:33:49 GMT

Had my glucose test today. Everything is fine...i'll post more about my appointment tomorrow as I am very tired but I thought I would send a quick post of the knitting I am working on.

Still doing the blanket. Its getting pretty big!

Here is a pic of it.

Here are the booties i'm making! I only made one so far!

anyway. Tired. will post tomorrow.

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 13:52:12 GMT

Ok it's almost 10. I really need to get my butt moving! However, not sure what I am going to do today. I think our agent sent us a list of houses to look at...hopefully there are some good ones there. We really need to get a move on this house thing. However, every day I say that we need to go to drive and look at houses "its not the right day." When is the right day? *sigh* At least its cool out today. I have to go for my walk but I have to wait for Andrew to get back from his appointment because i am "Phone Girl" until he returns.

Knitting Update: I have actually made about 6 inches of my baby blanket already! Wahoo! My mom helped me the other day and I really got some good practice in. I decided to start over from the one I started the other day cause I kept forgetting the pattern and messing up. So, I switched to a Knit 3 Purl 3 pattern which is turning out quite nice. I have messed up many times but you can't really tell too much because of the pattern I chose to do. I also decided to make the blanket striped. It is Pink and White striped. about an inch and a half of each color alternating. I'll probably try something more complicated after i'm done with this blanket. I also want to make another blanket with softer yarn. I don't really like the feel of acrilyc yarn.

Anywho, still have not found my innerself quite yet but i'm feeling I might possibly be breaking out of my shell but who knows. Only time will tell. It takes time. Also, i'm 27 weeks today! 13 more weeks till my due date! Thats crazy! Time is flying yet going by slow if that makes any sense.

If you understand you understand...if you don't you don't!

Feeling eh....

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 15:59:36 GMT

Agh. Down again today for no reason. I hate when I feel this way. There is noi really way to make me feel better. It usually just goes away on its own. I know its because of the hormones cause this happened frequently when I was going through puberty. I'm not feeling the way in which I just want to sleep all day (which is good). I just feel like there is that pit at the bottom of my stomach and I don't know why its there. I'm trying to clean my house to make me feel better (not really working at the moment). Hopefully I won't feel like this all day. Its sooo annoying!

I guess the one thing that really is bothering me is the fact that I don't have a job and I feel that i'm not contributing financially to my soon to be family. I have some money saved but I feel that i'm just taking from it and not giving back to it. I wish there was a way I could make money from home. Right now I feel like a bum. I don't have much to do during the day except clean the house. If I go out, I end up spending money which is not something I should be doing right now. *sigh* at least the weekend is pretty much here and hopefully i'll get to spend some time with Andrew which would make me happy. Also, looking at houses will be fun.

There is my vent. It was nice to get it off my chest. Probably not too interesting to read though.

Also, if anyone has any ideas on what I should incude in my baby registry let me know. I still have to make one. Hoping I will have a shower at the end of October sometime...although I don't have much control over that :) I don't mind though...

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 13:43:42 GMT

Wow, its wednesday already? Boy the time seems to be flying. Fall is just around the corner! I have never looked forward to fall in my life. But, this year, I can't wait for it to come! I am hating the heat at the moment. At least its still cool when I go for my walks in the morning. I'm wondering if a mile a day is a good amount to walk or if I should walk more...hmmm. I've doing very well with getting to do it every day which is a plus. Starting to think that I should talk to my midwife about a birth plan. I havn't really thought about it too much yet but as next week is the beginning of my 3rd trimester, I should probably write some stuff down and discuss it with my midwife when she comes to do my glucose test at the end of this month.

I know I'm doing the water birth...I definately need to come up with some kind of a soundtrack that will be appropriate. I don't know if I should put all relaxing songs on there or if I should add some upbeat ones to keep me motivated. Mabye I will make 2 cds. A calm one and a upbeat one so then I can switch them if need be. I know one of the songs that I definitaly want on there....its that song by the band Live I forget what its called "rolling thunder?" I think thats it...or something like that. Maybe its called "circle of life"?NOT THE ELTON JOHN ONE!!! I love Elton John and I like that song but I don't really want to picture the lion king when i'm having my baby.

Anywho. Any input on ideas of things I should include in my birthplan or things I should take into consideration would be much appreicated.

Today, I get to pack some stuff up! I think we might look at some short sale houses sometime soon. If we don't get a move on then we may not be out of this place by the end of october like we wanted. I really hope we are. I want to start shopping for nursery furniture and stuff!!

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 21:32:00 GMT

I think i'm gonna make Fajitas for dinner...but that would involve getting up and i'm kinda feeling a little sick to my stomach. Probably cause i'm just hungry. Damn I wish I could cook sitting down.

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 20:13:39 GMT

Here is my 19 week Ultrasound

26 weeks (taken today)

Another 26 week one.

I feel huge but I know I will be getting much bigger! :)

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 12:13:53 GMT

Ok. Getting ready to start the day. Just woke up. Hmm what shall I do today? I have found if I don't have a plan I have a worse day cause I feel really bored and useless. I think today i'll try to pack some stuff in boxes (even though we don't know exactly when we will find a house) although I know I won't want to do it in a month or so so I might as well get started. I also have some stuff to return to Old Navy. I think i'll have an egg sandwich for breakfast and go for my walk first.

Tomorrow I will be 26 weeks although I thought that I switched over on a Sunday it turns out I switch on a Tuesday. Not that it really matters that much. I'll put up belly pictures today or tomorrow. Looks like its shaping up to be a nice day outside. Not a cloud in the sky! Hmm maybe i'll get my last bit of tanning in before summer is over. That might be good. I'm starting to fade as it is (:

Well, I guess thats it for now. Oh and if you are interested my wonderful granmother send me a link to a cute kitten video if your into that sort of think. :0 enjoy!

video.yahoo.com/watch/3375896

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 16:56:54 GMT

So tired today. Each time i woke up to pee last night i went back to sleep and had a bad dream. That makes for like 4 bad dreams. Arg. Makes me not even want to go to bed. I hope I have good dreams tonight...I gotta clean my house today and hopefully do a little big of packing some stuff up. We finally have a real estate agent so hopefully the house situation will be underway soon. I can't wait to get a house so I can start decorating the nusery.

My dad has a crib he wants to give me. However, i kind of wanted to do the room in all white furniture...I guess I could always paint it. However, I would be afraid the paint would chip off and the baby would eat it...should I take the free crib and just appreciate it? Or should I buy one that matches the rest of the furniture that I will get. Even if I get brown furniture it probably won't match exactly...oh well I guess the baby won't care.

We still have to decide on a paint color for the nursery too...i'm thinking some kind of aqua sea foam color....at least thats what Andrew likes and I think it sounds good too. This girl will be pinked out as it is. Might as well have a non pink wall color. Also, if we get s surprise and its a boy, he won't have a pink room to deal with. However, real men wear pink so...who knows maybe he would like it :)

Thats all for now folks. Hopefully I wake up soon. I had a cup of coffee...didn't seem to help too much. Ok getting off my butt now.

HOT!!!

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 14:52:13 GMT

Why the heck is it so damn hot today? The sun isn't even shining and i'm sitting in an apartment that is 83 degrees! I'd put on my A/C but its barely even strong enough to make it to the living room! I could go for some ice cream right now....yum ice cream.

Ugh. I bought a "how to knit" book...which I knew how to straight knit but I forgot how to do the purling and I don't know how to do anything else. So....I want to make a baby blanket but I need to practice first. So far not so good. I keep messing up and its frustrating me beyond belief! I can straight knit and I can straight purl now I just can't do the alternating without screwing something up. I know I should take a class if I really wanna learn but i'd rather save my money and teach myself.

Maybe next time I see my mom she can help me figure it out. :)

Baby update

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 00:46:55 GMT

Had my midwife appointment on Wednesday. I'm 25 weeks and five days today (Friday). On Wed she measured my belly and I am 25 cm which is exactly what it is supposed to be. Who knew that the centemeters of the mothers uterus corresponded with the week you were in your pregnancy...I didn't know that. My blood pressure and heart rate are perfect as well as the baby's heartbeat. While we were listening to the heartbeat it all of a sudden it got really really fast which is because she was moving and then it slowed back down again. My Midwife said that that was a really good sign of a healthy baby (that made me happy). My next appointment is in 3 weeks. She is going to come to my house and do my Gestational diabetes test. However, she does the test differently than most doctors. She comes to my house in the A.M. before I eat breakfast. Pricks my finger to take blood, we eat breakfast, then go for a walk, and 2 hours later she takes my blood again. I have to pay $30 for this one and if I took it at my other hospital midwifes office it would be free. However, I really didn't want to take that disgusting sugary drink and risk getting sick to my stomach. Not in the mood for that. I will post more often...However, I don't have many people reading this so I don't know if there is much of a point. I need more friends!!!!

The picture below is a pic of me at 22 weeks. I'm bigger now. I gotta put my 24 week on on my computer. I will do that and take a 26 week one on sunday. I"m trying to take one every 2 weeks.

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 16:59:25 GMT

Hello all. This is my first entry. Hopefully I will use this journal to keep everyone updated on things that are going on with me. Check back often.